Intentional writing on a consistent basis is a challenging task. I, too, have fallen into the trap of not knowing what to say or how to say it. So I decided that I would just free write whatever comes to mind.
I have always known that a person's attitude towards life could greatly influence the experience of a person's life. So many things have increased my motivation to be better. The success of my Senior Exhibit, graduating from college, meeting amazing people and potential job opportunities. However, because I have not solidified a job, my plans have altered, and after over a hundred job applications I still have nothing. It has slowly decreased my look on life and ultimately negatively affected my attitude. The daily desire to do and be more has become increasingly difficult. There have been many times I have wanted to give up entirely. I remember hearing the stories from alumni who said that life after college is difficult, especially for a photographer, and rejection is inevitable. I now know the feeling all too well.
What has continued to keep me going is a choice. A choice to continue to love myself and life even though it may be painful. Some days are harder than others, but I know that there will be an expiration date as an unemployed college graduate. I must hold to these words, I hope it resonates with you as well.
"Happiness starts with you, not with your relationships, not with your job, not with your money, but with you."
There is nothing in this world that can make me happy if it does not first begin with myself. In this season, I know that I can learn the secret of being content with everything and even with nothing at all.